I have no family besides those I left back in Canada, and we hardly interact. I’ve kind of fallen from the family tree in that sense. I also have no family here in Osaka. Nor do I have any friends, of any kind, here or anywhere else.
Normally I’ve always been quite comfortable with being alone, but these past few months it’s been eating away at me more and more. I’m only really posting this as I feel an overwhelming need to just get it out of my system.
It’s also not simply a matter of me being alone because I live in a foreign country. Ever since I graduated high school, I’ve never really made a new friend. I was heavily into weed, and spent most of my 20s making sure I had enough money to keep myself stocked. I barely managed to graduate university because of it. It also contributed a lot to a sense of social anxiety I had throughout those years.
I came to Japan seven years ago partly to escape that, as it’s highly illegal here. It’s worked, and I no longer smoke, nor do I suffer from social anxiety, but my lifestyle hasn’t really changed. I’m now 33 and my days are just work, and then being alone while trying to keep my mind occupied.
I do go to social events, but none of them have ever produced a lasting relationship. I’ve also dated since arriving in Japan, but none of those relationships have really lasted past 6 months or so.
Anyway, sorry for the downer post. Curious if there’s anyone else in the city in a similar position. Would love to hear your experiences.
by ConsiderationMuted95