So, I know it may sound grotesque, but after a few days I came here, to study in language school and then in college (well, that was the plan), I understood that it’s just not my place to be. I like safeness and cleanliness, beautiful scenery, beautiful gyals and boys everywhere and, and, and… That’s it. I can cook myself quite well and am not a picky eater, so food here is not a major thing to me, I like anime and manga, but not to the extent of living here just for that only reason, it just was a dream of mine, a dream of new place and life, but I did not overhype myself, only studied the language and worked my ass off to get here, to escape my poor future in horrible country (guess which of late USSR it is). And now, that I am here, it feels meaningless to me, I don’t like or enjoy almost anything, and the thing is – I was like that my whole life, I know from the beginning what I like and don’t like if I see it. Then leave! Yeah, if it was that easy, but the main problem is – wasted money, time and opportunity. I “wasted” 2 years on 2-3 jobs simultaneously, earned that fucking 20k$ and now spent ~6k$ on tickets, school and other things, if I invest a few more bucks and years in it, will it be worth it? Or is it better to return to that cloaka and continue to struggle, but with peace on mind? I just don’t know. If someone with similar experience is here – write down your opinion or some curses at my side, it’s ok, I came here for that.
P.s if you know some sort of a group meet-up for lonely foreigners, I mean, to enjoy time together or help each other, without all that hook-up BS, write it down too, thanks.
Edit: so, I got quite a few meaningful pieces of advice and I’ll try to contact more people, maybe it will do the change, thanks
by Inevitable_Marzipan8