Apologies if this has been discussed before or isn’t allowed. Just looking for somewhere to share and maybe get some advice/similar stories.
I lived in Tokyo for just over a decade and recently left. When I decided to leave, I was coming out of a long relationship that I felt strongly wasn’t going to work anymore. I had a beautiful apartment in a new building, a job I enjoyed, pets, and a fulfilling social life. But I felt utterly certain it was my time to leave, to try to reconnect with family I had barely seen in that decade and try to create a job and future in the US. I was in the process of getting PR as well, but canceled it because I felt so strongly my future wasn’t there anymore.
Since coming back I’ve been a mess. The suburbs are isolating and I don’t have to funds to move out of my family’s home yet. I miss my friends, the comfortable atmosphere of Tokyo I was so used to, the freedom to go and do whatever I want. The US seems so foreign to me now and I don’t know how to relate to people my age as locals haven’t had the same experiences as I have. My social media accounts are filled with all my friends enjoying themselves in the life I threw away and I feel like I’ll never be happy again. But I also know if I were to go back, I realistically could never lead the life I had in my early twenties again either.
Perhaps it sounds dramatic, but if anyone has anything to share or advice, would greatly appreciate it.
by merurin09
