Decided not to recontract for a 3rd year and my feelings keep going back and forth.
My placement is great. I love my school and students. I've become really close friends with nearby ALTs. I adore the town that I live in.
However, I also feel kind of tired from the job. Due to some unfortunate circumstances for the school, my workload actually noticeably increased after my first year. I hate living alone as well, so coming home exhausted to a tired apartment all the time isn't great for my mental health. In addition, I've got a girlfriend back home, and don't want to spend more time away from her than I have to.
Still, I really want to see my students graduate next year, as they were the 1st years from when I just arrived. I've really built up good relationships with my coworkers as well, so leaving now feels a bit like cutting things short just when I've become close to people. I also was told they would take action to lessen my workload if I stayed, which made the decision more difficult.
I'm also not 100% sure I'm prepared for my next career move. I spent a lot of my free time studying Japanese here, and am really hoping that I passed the JLPT N2 this time around. I'm wondering if it would've been a better idea to stick around and use the extra time to build up my resume in other ways to really get ready for the job hunt. Then again, if I didn't spend my time doing it so far, how will I know if I'll have the energy to do it next year? 😮💨
I guess the papers have already been signed, so nothing else I could do anyway. Just kind of wondering if it was the right move.
by Jet_Jaguar88