Burnout

Hi guys, I’ve been dealing with a bit of burnout lately. I’m currently in language school learning Japanese and I’ve been here a year and feel like I’m not making a lot of progress with the language.

I originally came here after someone close to me passed away and three months into being here a close family member passed away and it’s been very hard. The past six months have been pretty hard and I figured I’d stick out the year and see how I felt.

It’s now been a year, and when I contacted my family as far as potentially moving back home, they made it clear that they don’t want me to come back so I feel like I’m just here now because I don’t want to deal with their toxic bullshit. I really thought that if I moved away for a year things might maybe turn out to be better with them and it looks like nothing has changed so I’m just kind of frustrated not really sure what to do. I do have a really great supportive group of friends back home that I really do miss a lot, but they all live at home so there’s not really much they can do.

I feel like I haven’t really made any deep friendships here after being here year and I can barely hold a conversation in Japanese. I realize most people I interact with at school are here on a fun study abroad and can’t be emotionally supportive during a hard time but I’ve had people get pissed at me for not wanting to party with them after I made it clear that I’m going through some personal stuff and it’s just been very frustrating.

When I first moved here, I thought I wanted to stay in Japan because I was in honeymoon phase and whatnot, but I think I do eventually want to move back.

Is this just normal homesickness? Has anyone gone through anything similar with making friends and learning with making friends and learning language the language? Any input would be greatly appreciated thanks guys.