I feel really frustrated that I can’t read things I’m actually very interested in and keep putting them off because I feel like I’m not ready…even though they are the whole reason why I wanted to learn Japanese in the first place. I feel like I may be thinking about this wrong.

I'm at the level of reading beginner manga now like よつばと！るりドラゴン、しろくまカフェ　etc. etc. However, I really want to also read more advanced things like Murakami novels, コンビニ人間、おやすみプンプン, Gunsmith Cats etc. but i keep putting it off because I feel like I am not at that level yet.

This feels really frustrating to me because reading more advanced work is the whole reason I am learning Japanese. I feel like I can't even open these advanced materials and it feels like I am denying myself something I love because I don't know enough to get through it. After learning Japanese for 2.5 years I feel like it's been long enough that I should have some access to these materials but I keep feeling not ready.

Does anyone have any advice to get over this frustration? I feel like I may be thinking about this completely wrong.