For reference, I'm in my mid teens (junior high school 3rd year in Japan) and my mom wanted me to move here with her from the United States because this is where her family is.
I moved here in October of 2023, so I've almost been here for a year. The whole time, I've had super bad social anxiety, and it hasn't gotten better at all. I also get embarrassed when I'm with my mom (and also my dad when he visited). I try my absolute best to avoid any social situations like ordering at restaurants, going to stores, asking anybody anything, and getting on trains with my dad (since he is as white as can be and we live in a not very popular town). My parents said that I'm also too hyper aware of my manners,clothes,actions,etc. My parents are starting to not like going out with me, since clearly I dread going out with them. My mom wants me to stay here for the rest of my life. I really don't want to. I want to go home. I feel like I'll never get over this. I feel like anytime my classmates see me, they secretly laugh because I'm the only person who can't speak Japanese. I'm so so sick of living here and I can't do anything about it.
by Dapper_Principle_811