I thought maybe the minds of Reddit could help me out…
So in this [manga](https://imgur.io/gallery/qSntHGE) this dude(let’s call him Aさん) has a realization. He was hung up on how a seemingly popular girl was going out with a loner dude bc Aさん up until this point firmly believes that they’re from different worlds/positions and can’t possibly be dating bc “that’s just how it works.”
そっか
なんとなくわかってしまった
今まで視界に入ってなかった奴が
急に「認められた」ように感じるモヤモヤ
認めてた奴が「妥協した」ように思えるつまらなさ
俺が他人の言動や 立ち位置や ランクがやたらと気になってしまうのは、
自分視点の基準がないからだ
So here’s my little translation from it—
I see
I figured it out
Why I was confused about this guy I never noticed before suddenly being accepted
Why it’s boring that it seems he “gave in”②
The reason I’m so hung up on words, actions, positions, rank
Is because I don’t have any basis for my point of view①
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So. My biggest question is ① am I understanding this right? Lmao 「自分視点の基準がない」is… hard lol
Myself perspective standardがない is where my brain immediately spits out, but what does that mean? Like “who am I to be judging people”? Or “i don’t know where I fall in the social hierarchy”? What exactly is 基準 doing here? Lol and 自分 is first person subject usage? Or…
A smaller question is ②妥協した
This refers to Aさん thinking that loner guy is changing (compromising himself) who he is to fit in with the popular girl right?
Anyway… I hope this is allowed. This little monologue has been troubling me and any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!!
2 comments
I don’t know any of the context besides what you put here so of course take this with a grain of salt, but…
I think what he’s saying is: he doesn’t have his own internal standards that he judges people by, so he uses superficial things like social status etc. He doesn’t have his own values (standards) like kindness or compatibility or whatever to judge people by, so he uses external ones.
And therefore these two people who he views as “incompatible” (by those external standards) getting together was very confusing for him. It annoyed him, because he couldn’t make it make sense using those standards. But he’s realizing that those external standards are *not* the ones that those two are using to judge each other, and that’s why the relationship can make sense to them. That’s why one of them isn’t actually compromising to date the other, even though that’s what it looked like from his use of external standards.
But that’s a very high-level reading (and may be incorrect anyway). I can’t help with the more mechanical grammar/vocabulary explanation.
I do think 認めてた奴が「妥協した」aka the one who is doing the recognizing/approving and therefore the compromising, is referring to the popular girl (based on your context before the snippet).
Whereas 視界に入ってなかった奴が 急に「認められた」before that refers to the one being acknowledged (the loner dude I’m assuming from your context).
Read both JP and En, 妥協した is talking about suzuki the girl since she constants talks about her ideal romantic situations, that she compromised and settled for tani
As for 基準, i think that ,due to his past trauma, he doesn’t have a standard coming from a personal viewpoint, only looking and judging things from 3rd person view of thier social hierarchy