Last year I made the desperate decision to take out a credit card loan in the amount of 400,000 yen to save my dad from an illness. After a year I have not even been able to get near the principal amount in terms of payment. This month my tenancy will expire and I have to find a new place to move. There is only 560 yen left in my bank. I am finishing up school soon and have not been able to secure a stable job, other than the baito that I do. I don't think I can last another day with my body just feeling so on edge and nervous about what is going to happen tomorrow. I am stressed out by the letters coming from the credit card company, and now even the phone bill has arrived. I feel like my heart is about to stop, and I will let it if it does. If only there's a reset button to wipe the slate clean. I am sorry for the long rant but reddit is probably the only place where I can be a soundboard to people anonymously. The guilt, the shame, being on the verge of crying every waking hour. I am a failure and I hope at least this can be a lesson to someone out there about the cruelty of being poor.
by Adventurous-War5753
